HFCS: effika’s blog

I found this on a random site somewhere. I don’t know who wrote it. It does, however describe my feelings for Paul exactly. Freaky.

I’ve accepted that we can’t be, but I’ve also accepted that you’re going to be that one person I carry with me for the rest of my life, the one that is always going to make my heart jump a little & my stomach tie up in knots no matter how happy I am otherwise & no matter how long it’s been. The one I will always secretly wish had asked me to the dance even though I am more happy with the guy who did. Do you realize how incredibly difficult it is to accept both those things at once? It’s a completely torturous situation if you stop to think it through.