HFCS: effika’s blog

Some people just ooze negativity. Charles is one of those people. He complains about everything. Nothing is ever good enough. Nobody is ever as good as he wants. The longer that I’m around him the worse my mood gets. Yet here I am. He’s in the same room [...]

*sigh*
Ryan is very confusing. I almost broke up with him tonight. I had a long talk with Paul about it. I really owe him one for letting me interrupt his paper-writing.
Ryan says he “cares about [me] too much to break up with me” yet the relationship itself is something [...]

Well…
Ryan and I decided to stay together. I guess.
I want to work things out; I want to put effort into this relationship to get things working again.
Ryan doesn’t know if it’s worth it or not, but would rather stick with the status quo.
We both agree that if things stayed as they are now, the [...]

I tweaked things a bit. Changed the background as it’s very likely not to snow anymore. Not too sure about the colors. I’ll figure them out and possibly change them later.
Doing this kind of thing makes me feel better, even if I should be in bed.

Saw Red Dragon tonight with Charles, Jason, and Thai. Paul came over, too, but didn’t tell anybody he didn’t want to watch it so played EQ the entire time.
I want to talk to Paul tomorrow about Ryan, but I’m not sure what I’d have to say. I suppose I’d tell him of what [...]

I think chemistry is breaking my brain.
Now I want to get a degree and run off and be a librarian.
Unfortunately, OU doesn’t offer that kind of degree, so I’d have to go to OSU.
This is bad. My friends are here.
I’d just like to do something I like. Everything I’m interested in [...]

Well…
I did it.
I broke up with Ryan.
I just couldn’t take it anymore. There was absolutely no passion left. All that stuff that’s been building up, all that stuff we agreed to try to change… none of it happened. Everything just stayed the same. I just couldn’t take it anymore.
I didn’t want [...]