HFCS: effika’s blog

Supposedly my sister should be 7 months pregnant with the child of Sweathog.

Supposedly she also may have gotten an abortion.

If it’s true, and my sister wanted to keep it from our parents, I could understand why. Mother is nuerotic. It’s impossible to hold a reasonable, mature conversation with her about anything important. After a few minutes she usually starts heavy, horrible guilt trips, and if those don’t bend the offspring to her will, she’ll cry and tell us we’re ruining her life. I’ve seen this more than once. It really makes me glad I’ll be leaving here for good come August. While my sister is not quite mature enough to make it on her own yet, I have no doubts she’ll move out shortly after she graduates from high school. Our mother’s harder on her than she ever was on me.

In unrelated news, I think running is actually doing something good for my body. My calves look nice, I’m getting definition in my thighs, and overall I’ve become a little slimmer. Best of all, I didn’t lose much weight! (I’m underweight; I just need to turn fat to muscle. But I am also horribly out of shape, and running helps to fix that.) I’ve started lifting some weights (Yes, it is a 3-pound “toning” weight. Yes, it tires my triceps out quickly. I’m working on it. :-), and doing some crunches. I like working out, especially running. Makes me feel like I don’t completely waste my days. :-)

Apparently a storm owned on Ryan’s town last night. Most of the windows in Ryan’s house are broken from the huge hail, and his brother got his car stuck in the flash flood. He says it was tons of fun to watch, though. I’d probably agree– nothing’s more fun to watch than a good, angry storm.

Things are going well between Ryan and me. It appears as though we’ll at least be best friends, if nothing else. Sometimes I would like to be more, but then I come into a funny situation– I’ve seen what a relationship is like with him, and I’d rather play the field for a while. Part of that my also be my aversion to dating at the moment. I really don’t know if I could get back together with him. We’ve decided to just let things happen as they will when we get back to Norman. Maybe that will help clear things up.