HFCS: effika’s blog

My stomache is killing me. I can’t sleep, so I’ll post.

I don’t want Sean to move away.

Paul suddenly dropped his summer classes and decided to go home. Ryan woke up today and Paul’s PC was gone… Paul called him in the afternoon and let him know he wouldn’t be there for the summer. Ryan’s very lonely now. I hung out with him a little this afternoon and he’s acting like he wants to get back together. He had his chance, and he showed me that he’s not good for me. I started feeling better about myself, about everything, soon after we broke up. I found my old interests I put aside for him. I’m a different, better, person, and he’s not. It won’t work. Especially since I’m not interested in that sort of relationship right now. I need a friend, not somebody constantly pining over the old days.

That’s one reason I don’t want Sean to leave. Sean just can’t go, not when I need help dealing with Ryan.

In other news, I’m going to get put on the lease at the new apt. Mid-July I’ll start moving in. I wonder what I’m getting myself into sometimes. I’m very close to campus and would still be close to Ryan if I lived here. One of the reasons I’m moving in with Amber and Melissa was that it was quite close to Sean’s place, even if it was a long commute to campus. I’ll be very far away from Ryan (and Paul and Charles when they get back) now. I don’t know Melissa or Amber well enough to really call them good friends. I suppose things will work out somehow tho.

It’s much later than I expected now… time for bed.

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