HFCS: effika’s blog

I’m working a little on a new design again, haven’t done much with it though because I’m at the parents’ (for longer that I expected) and all the life is pretty well drained out of me right now. I’m going to be really happy to go back to work on Monday. This entire week has been disappointment. I know I should be used to it now from you, but it never gets any easier. You wouldn’t show up for lunch, you’d decide not to hang out, and now you won’t see me on the week I took off to see you. If I’d known this earlier I wouldn’t have taken the entire week off. You say you’ll show up on Sunday, but I doubt I’m even going to bother cleaning up my room. I somehow have this feeling that something else will come up so that you can’t see me. You have my new mailing address, so at least I’ll have some way to get my Sim City 4 CDs back.

Sometimes I think your sole purpose in my life is to show me what Ryan felt like during high school when I’d get sick or the roads would ice over and I’d have to cancel going to Liberal to see him. Cancelling those trips would kill him, but I never quite got what it felt like. He never cancelled on me, no matter how he felt or the condition of the roads. He and I lived 6hrs apart. You and I only live 2hrs away.

I haven’t posted in a while because I’ve wanted to post about you, and I knew you wouldn’t like it. I have to get this out somehow, and it’s all information you should know already anyway.

Everytime I knit a row I think about how I’d like this scarf to be for you, so don’t take things as worse than they seem.

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