HFCS: effika’s blog

Well, sorta. I had a very, very bad dream. The kind that doesn’t leave you. The kind that makes you unable to eat the lunch you just bought from Wendy’s. The kind that has you shaking all day. I dreamed that Sean had died, but I didn’t know, as his [...]

Class was boring. Found out I probably won’t be seeing anybody until my French class tomorrow. Lunch was lonely. I kept thinking of our GBA SP, and how it was a symbol that once things were so strong between us that Sean and I would make a major purchase together. I [...]

I am happy for the first time since Sean told me he wasn’t going to talk to me for an unspecified lenght of time. I think it’s due to the new trivia bot on 8bit, new GBA game, Green Acres, and constantly eating trail mix since I got home even though my stomache (was) [...]

Paul’s commie teacher had this to say about capitalism.
Tonight I went over to Paul and Ryan’s with the intention of taking in Reno911 and Daily Show in an enjoyable, smart, environment. I didn’t get to watch either. At least DS will be on again tomorrow night. Reno reruns on Mondays, I think, [...]

Got up around 8.30, took a nap, got back up at 10am. Talked to Ryan for a little while, left Sean a message to have a good day, then played Mario and Luigi and talked on 8bit for a while. After I took a shower Sneaker and I read the pathology book together. [...]

French was boring. We were just going over aimer (to love/like) and how to say how much you like something. For 2 hours. I did come to the conclusion that the French are a very general sort of people. The specifics don’t matter, just the basic idea behind it. For [...]

I think I figured out why I can’t eat in the mornings anymore. When I wake up I haven’t had anything to eat for many an hour usually. Couple that with me awaiting any word from Sean and I’ve got quite an upset stomache on my hands. It’s been a week, today. [...]

Played some more Mario RPG when I got home. I can’t belive it’s only 2.17pm. Time is going by so slowly today. One of the villians, Popple, looks like Invader Zim. It’s kinda cool.
My back is killing me. Probably from hunching over all day in class trying to sleep. I [...]

Sean says we can be friends. But he’s still got a lot of problems to work through. Plus he’s starting work, with a schedule that pretty much garauntees we’re never around at the same time. Except maybe weekends, although he works those apparently. I am scheming already about that schedule and [...]

I was in the kitchen getting some more club soda (unhappy stomache this afternoon, yay) and Sneaker was sitting on the window sill, watching the birds. Suddenly I hear a clicking sound, such as the kind you might make at a pet to get them to listen to you. Sneaker is clicking and [...]

Stayed over at Ryan’s last night. Still here, actually. I’m waiting for traffic to die down (when the game begins) before I leave. We didn’t do anything. I was tired so I fell asleep on his bed. He was too lonely to make me leave. I’d come over to [...]

Melissa (one of my roommates) dumped her boyfriend of 4 years because he didn’t want to take the relationship anywhere. Apparently a lot of malaise had set in, and they needed to either do something about it and get serious or just end things. Matt didn’t want to end things, but he didn’t [...]

I had the same dream tonight as I did last night. I dreamed (again) that Sean came to see me on Sunday (today). We went to Quizno’s and Barns & Nobles and hung out talking and everything got better. Why does my mind have to do this to me? :-(
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I took this test over my knowledge of Penny Arcade. I got a 47. Ryan got 42. Paul got 38. Charles got 8. What did you get?
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A little over a year ago (Sept. 2) I posed SEAN SUCKS in h1-size font on my KMorg journal. On the 11th I posted that we were friends again. I guess there’s something about late August/early September that’s bad for us. I hope I can post this next 11th that we’re talking regularly [...]

today is not a good day.
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and I’m all washed out. Is this what Deaner was talking about?
Don’t believe the florist when he tells you that the roses are free.
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I feel so rejected lately. Ryan only wants me for sex, Paul and Charles find me too annoying to do anything with (wonderful mis-chats), and I cause too many problems for Sean to be able to talk to me.
There’s nothing left anymore.
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The front passenger door on my Saturn is broken, too. My car was supposed to be ready today. They didn’t find out about the broken front door until they installed the back door on Friday. They ordered the new door this morning, and figure it’ll be another week until it’s ready.
Sean, if [...]

I finally had a good day. :-) Despite the fact that my car is in the body shop for another week.
This morning I had no physics lab. Ryan offered to go to lunch with me, to apologize for last night. I get to his appartment and kind of break down crying, but [...]

I laughed out loud for the first time in a while today. Even though it was thanks to Shack it is still good. :-)
Effika says, “+p you can use you mountain skills”
shackelford says, “Sorry effika but taht’s going in the file”
shackelford says, “YOU CAN USE YOU MOUNTAIN SKILLS”
I am at work. Yay for [...]

I spent some time with Ryan and Paul after work today, about 2 hours. During high school I’d see people a couple of times a week for about 2 hours. Of course, during high school I had band stuff 4 nights a week. So I didn’t have time to get bored.
I talked [...]

… by skiping the class. Actually, Paul didn’t want to go to French today b/c he’d spent today and yesterday writing a ton of papers. I didn’t feel like walking back in the dark by myself, so I decided to skip too. We got there early, turned our homework in, and left. [...]

Friday was anticipation. Waiting to go to lunch, waiting for Paul to wake up, waiting for my nailpolish to dry, and a million other things.
Charles, Ryan, and I went to Texadelphia for lunch today. It’s been here for a while but we’ve never bothered to eat there before now. It was… Ok. [...]

I woke up in a pretty good mood this morning. I slept something like 10 hours, so perhaps all I needed was some rest.
1st Dream
I dreamt that I was taking care of kitten. The kitten is like one of the semi-feral cats that inhabit Bishop’s Landing– grey, and long hair in /some/ places, [...]

I used Ryan this morning b/c I needed human contact. He wondered why I was so huggy this morning, and I told him it was because my throat hurt. He knows I get clingy when I don’t feel well, so he bought it and let me cuddle on him while he coded this [...]

My afternoon kinda sucked so I won’t talk about it.

This evening I taped the Chiefs game for Ryan. Instead of watching it I hung out with Melissa and Amber and her friends. We ordered pizza and watched a movie.
I got to talk to Sean a little this evening. I just don’t know [...]

There are muscles in my throat that are hurting that I didn’t know I had.
Today started out well enough. I called about my car– they thought it would be done today, but the part they needed wasn’t in yet when I checked back this afternoon. So tomorrow. Maybe. He hopes, he’s [...]

Today I woke up in a horrible mood and decided I hated Sean for putting me through all this and didn’t ever want to talk to him again. So I called him a bunch of times and sent him an e-mail and some messages on Y!. (I don’t make a lot of sense [...]

Work was aweful. I spent 3 hours working on a new calibration curve only to spill everything when I’d got it all set up. We were out of Indigo stock, so I would have to make more. That stuff is aweful to make. I get to do it all again on [...]