HFCS: effika’s blog

Paul’s commie teacher had this to say about capitalism.

Tonight I went over to Paul and Ryan’s with the intention of taking in Reno911 and Daily Show in an enjoyable, smart, environment. I didn’t get to watch either. At least DS will be on again tomorrow night. Reno reruns on Mondays, I think, anyway. I didn’t get to watch either of them b/c Ryan had a friend from work, Matt, and Matt’s friend Jake over. They’re still in high school, but they were pretty cool. Then Jennifer came over. Apparently Jennifer’s been wanting to meet me for a while. I barely talked to her the entire time, though. She rather killed the fun conversation that was going before she came over. She seems a rather typical preppy high school girl. Like, so totally! *flips hair*

I was doing pretty well this evening, even with 2 new people there, until Jennifer came over. I couldn’t take it, I retreated into my shell and tried to watch the Daily Show. It was hard to hear the TV, though. And I started thinking about Sean. And about how he’s so much more mature than a lot of people I’ve met. About how he’d have the exact same opinion about Ryan’s company tonight. About how I wish I could watch this with him instead. About how I hope I get to talk to him before he starts his new job. For some reason I thought there would be a message waiting for me when I got home. There’s no reason for me to think that. He’s given me no indication whatsoever of when he’ll talk to me. I guess I’m just anxious. I’m going to wait until I get home from class on Friday to send him another e-mail, so that he has his space. I’m just getting so anxious, not knowing whether we’ll be friends or not. That part is scaring me. I don’t want to lose him. I just wish I had some sign.

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