HFCS: effika’s blog

I got some of the closure on all this friend crap. I was pretty much right about everything– these people just aren’t interested in being good friends anymore. I don’t feel like explaining much of it right now. I feel relieved that I finally know what’s the score is, but I’m depressed about these goings-on. I still have some questions for Paul (he is evil and knows how to avoid answering questions), but I’m not sure I’m going to get a chance to ask them, cowardly douchebag with a penchant for leading me on that he is.

I’m supposed to move out of this appartment that I share with Amber and Melissa. Except that 1-bedroom appartments that don’t cost an arm and a leg are nowhere to be found in this town anymore. Dave is trying to get ahold of his landlord to see if he’s going to rent out the appartment above his place over the summer. That’s the best lead that I have right now– if it’s not there, I’m going to be paying through the nose for the privelege of not living with idiots. Joe said that he was willing to go for a 2-bedroom if I found a good price, but I’m not sure I want to live with Joe. He’s just a friend, but he’s not somebody I’m comfortable with yet (like I am with Paul/Chuck/Ryan/Jason/Sean. All the people I’m willing to live with either don’t live in this town, or have expressed distaste at my presence. Well, Sean’s old roommate Jeff is somebody else I’m pretty comfortable with, but he’s found living arrangements of his own.) so I don’t know how good of an idea it is. Ryan is in the same boat that I am in, and he’s decided he might just get a 2-bedroom and get more out of the money that he’s paying. With all of the past (terrible, dramatic) history between Ryan and I there is very little chance that we’d be able to live together without incident.

Everything’s gone downhill since Finals in December. I had it all at that point– people were calling me to hang out. I was on good terms with everybody I knew. Even my roommates didn’t seem so bad then. I am hoping that I’m going to reach the low point soon, and that things will start looking up.

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