HFCS: effika’s blog

I was born in the summer. When I was very little, I would wake my parents up with horribly cheery (for 6am) quips such as “It’s a bright sunshiney day!” I need sunlight, even though I never slept nights until I was 3 and when left alone my internal clock has me going to bed at dawn.

I haven’t had a lot of sunlight this summer. Did you know they had to cart women into Seattle? The constant rains drove them to suicide, and the men were left without wives.

I’ve been completely unmotivated to do anything productive since about April. My default mood slipped from “mildly cheery” to “bountiful ennui”. At first it seemed to be my work situation—I don’t get a summer break anymore, and I don’t have enough leave saved up yet to take a good vacation. Lots of my friends are/were off doing fun stuff with their copious free time, and I thought I was just disheartened over being “responsible”.

Really, though, I think it’s because it’s been cloudy and rainy for the past three months. According to the National Weather Service, OKC has had more rain year-to-date than Seattle.

Today is sunny (so far) and I’ve got all the blinds open. I generally hate to do that as I live in an apartment, but I can’t stop myself. I need to soak up some sun.

Usually I’ll hope for a little bit of rain for my birthday, to cool the temperatures. This year I’m hoping it’ll be a nice sunny day.